viernes, 23 de julio de 2010

Undisclosed desires are the worst nightmare of any man. Beating inside of the soul with the fire of betrayal... oh, how much would men give for a life without the knowledge of its existance...

lunes, 19 de julio de 2010

Liar

Live like we're dying...?

One day dedicated to the search of the love of my life, the next day perhaps I might want to go to Tokyo, and maybe the day after that I'll go to the end of the world to do some research about the age of the Earth.

Seriously, what does 'live like you're dying' actually mean? That the day you're dead and God or whatever steps inf front of you, you might actually say: Oh, hey there... thing. I don't regret anything of my life, I lived as if every second was the last of my life. I went here and there, and did that and this, and talked with tons of people and helped many of them...

And then...? What does that leave to us? What does that leave to you? An awesome bunch of memories? I don't know... even if 'live like you're dying' refers to always do what you like, it's an irresponsible advise. What about look for the thing you know it's still missing? It's irritating to think that one day I can say, 'Oh well, I never found that thing that is still missing; on the other hand I got tons of this and that and awesome experiences and blah blah blah...'; what does having tons of awesome experiences even mean? what does that leave us? hope? wisdom? intelligence...? I don't think so, and even if I was mistaken, what are we suppossed to do with intelligence and wisdom and hope if we don't even know what is it that we really want?

'To see the world' in the way of multiple perspectives is just crap. It's like a teen going to the war without any kind of preparation, he can wonder about the view or he can be afraid of it, and he can promise that, if he survives and comes back home safe, he will do everything in his power to never act like the cruel men that he saw outside; or he can just pray to come back home and then he'll tell the world about the things he saw and who knows, perhaps someone is going to hear him. But what is it that they can do while being there? To see tons of things and do their best to survive? They won't probably make it and even if they did, would they say, with all of them minds in the process, that that kind of experience was necessary to find their call? That's called allienation and to be disgustingly naive...

'Live like we're dying' is to go like animals through the world, to see everything and not see anything. To look for something and then loose the tiny us that we have achieved with tons of efforts.

It's just that almost no one has actually a brain of their own. And their world, our world, just sucks.

Watch shonen ai x3~